skulls and the likes
04.27.10 (5:13 pm) [edit]
i totally dig this design! (source: http://tjiggotjurring.deviant...). can only dream of having this tattooed on my back and legs. friends were saying that doing too much would make one look kinda scary. but that's the point of having your body tattooed, no? so people would actually avoid being too close to you, thinking that you're some kind of satanic worshiper of some sort. well, that's exactly what i want them to think and expect of me, but that is not who i really am though. this is where people would show their side of judging a book by its cover. wouldn't it be fun? ugh, i want 'em on my back so very badly. if only...if only.. but if only je-lah.
on another note, i thought he wouldn't remember the url, but he did. siow! i have so many things in mind that i want to penned down in here but unfortunately am currently bogged down with some political writing assignments - which i loathe so much. despite the extension of the submission date, i don't think it would help make my assignments any better. so cheerio!
I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are
"True love lives on lollipops and crisps..." -Thom Yorke
04.25.10 (6:56 am) [edit]Him to me:
"ABOUT LOVE :
"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were "
moga kita akan kekal bersama selamanya.
insyaAllah... sama-sama kita berdoa. lupakan segala
derita yg pernah kita lalui. ianya satu pengajaran dlm hidup
supaya kita lebih kuat dlm menempuh dugaannya.
p harap dapat menjaga hati dan perasaan m.
dapat menjaga m dgn sepenuh kasih sayang.
p nak kita sama-sama hadapi semua ini hingga ke akhir waktu.
dimana ia bermula disitu kita akhiri.
hati p hanya utk m.hugsss....
my heart is always for u.
i love you so much sayang.
pls take care... i miss you sayang." - P
I guess true love really waits.he understands me so well, in almost anything that i do, and desire. he never complaints. he never forced me to become someone else. he is EVERYTHING that i am not. he really completes me.
Thank you God.
Borneo
04.15.10 (10:01 pm) [edit]Off to borneo island in less than two days then full throttle on a couple of assignments. faints.
the 'F' word
04.11.10 (9:36 pm) [edit]i still miss him. heavy sobs.
i'm not sure if this is the right path. i used to say to him that he was my first "true" love. he was. but my first love can't be washed off like that. p's presence was second nature to me for the past four years. but, i've made mistakes along the way. mistakes that may have bad consequences if i were to be with f. i'm not sure if he could accept it, because even i find it utterly difficult to accept it.
they are two very different men. but i love them the same.
i've lost faith in myself.but i have to do what i have to do. even without the consent of some. i think i could endure any pain come what may but hurting f's heart pained me immensely. i want autie anne's chocolate-dipped pretzel sticks to keep me sane.
:'(
d, camel and ronin
04.10.10 (1:38 pm) [edit]i'm going to sleep things off. some say it's a sign of depression. well, i say, it's a procrastination (of depression) in progress. i can only hope it would reappear when i'm no longer here.
on a lighter note, it's going to be 6 years coming May. and 1 year smoke-free (although i cheat for emm...let's add it all up for em..plus minus 2 months).
but i still feel the urge though.every single day. uff
and ooh! now i know why i liked camel. its from this movie that i watched during uni days, Ronin. i re-watched it yesterday. remember the cool guy, the driver, Larry(?) (not sure), dead in the end. he liked camel. i bought a pack of camel the next day. been loving it since then.
now, stop it and go to bed.
Irama indah buaian gerhana
02.27.05 (3:02 am) [edit]"mari kita selam ke laut biru,
lihat langit di dasarnya,
lihat awan ditirainya,
lihat hati didirinya,
kalau bisa ku sentuh bintang,
akan ku letak di dasar hatimu.
kalau ampuh rindu yang nian,
biar aku terdampar sepi,
biar aku menodai diriku,
biar aku tersenyum kelat,
biar aku simpulkan ralat........"
-2005
I love poems. Don't we all do?
paradigm!!
12.13.04 (11:00 pm) [edit]I need a space to relax and pour all my thoughts out of my shattered skull. (Bloody hell)
Btw, Im thinking of traveling. A blog could be useful for me.
Although I think I suck at writings. Well, it does not concern you loads anyway.
Tickle me off.
